I had a guy looking for love in me once.
I never thought love even existed for me.
He was determined to find it.
He kept knocking on my door for days.
And finally I let him in.
I was able to feel something.
Feelings that words can’t even explain.
We had something special. I thought.
Until he realized that he was at the wrong door.
And love was just next door.
What are your daydreams about?
I don’t know if I want this anymore
It’s so complicated.
The way I feel about you.
The way things are.
I thought I could give this a try.
Now here I am. Thinking about what I should do next. My feelings are real. I didn’t give you my all, no, I didn’t…I know..But trust me I tried so hard…
It’s a scary feeling you know.
You wouldn’t understand. I don’t expect you to. You say “we’re in this together.” But how come I feel so alone even though you’re beside me. Maybe this is not complicated. Maybe I am complicated.
And it’s like I don’t want to be me anymore
I like the idea of you just not
Being with you
All these apologies
I don’t need them
I don’t want it
Your hurtful words
Kills me every time
Though I don’t think you know it
You blame me for everything
You never take responsibility for your actions
You are suppose to be the figure I look up to
But you’re not
I’m not your punching bag
I’m not your rag doll
Because you are the one who’s gonna regret this
This pain inside me
This hole I have in my heart
This life I don’t want to live anymore
This is what you’ve done to me
Are you proud?
I swear she’s gonna make me crazy
The living will keep on living. That’s life